How Am I Today?
Hello. I do apologize for not writing sooner but I have been dealing with things in life that were difficult to overcome. I seem to have made some bad decisions which led us to become homeless and that is very frustrating because I can't just blink my eyes and make it better. It really affects someone mentally when they have nowhere to live and then the stress kicks in which makes it even harder to deal with. I haven't been homeless since 2008 and here I am again having to stay with someone else and sleeping on a floor. I guess it is better than sleeping behind a dumpster on the cold hard concrete, but it is degrading as well as humiliating. I am going to soon be 47 years old and homeless not by choice. I guess things will work themselves out sooner or later. I just have to find my strength to overcome it all.
Today I am feeling pretty good and rested. I didn't go to sleep until four this morning but I feel good. I am ready to start my day and look forward to my accomplishments today. Since I began writing books I have found my happy place. Some of my books will be stories that I can release my trauma and aggression in. My husband has been very supportive and loving and I thank him for that. Today is a new day and I can only think positive which will get me pretty far. The one thing I can tell you, the reader, that you live one day at a time and it does get easier. Keep your head up and keep pushing forward. You are a survivor and will continue to be one forever.
Have you ever wondered what people would do without you being around to do things for them? I am going to find out today because my days of being everyone's maid, secretary, and dog groomer are over. I have always done for everyone else and hardly ever for myself but today is a new attitude. I am doing for me today and every day from here on out. I will not be a slave that wears her heart on her sleeve. I have so many things to get done but helping everyone else around me hinders what is really important to me. I need to do what makes me happy which is my writing so you will see me here every day and with new stories to share. My goal is to let you know that I, too am human and go through things even to this day and it never stops but that is what makes me stronger. I struggle each day even since leaving a harsh and deadly lifestyle but I am still here and will remain here until it is time for me to leave, but I will help many people before that time comes.
I apologize for not being here as much as I would like to be. Sometimes life gets in the way and things happen which draw my attention even more than it should. I have been going through the motions for the past few weeks due to living with a roommate who is out of control. I isolate myself away from her because I don't want to get pulled into her drama. She has really become a threat to my mental health and my sobriety. I feel trapped sometimes because we don't have the money to get our own place yet but it will happen soon. I have to remind myself what addictions did to me and where it put me and that works great for me but my mental health status is failing because the other night I really found myself thinking bad thoughts. I am showing you that no one is perfect and never let anyone tell you they are because they are lying to everyone and themselves. Leaving a traumatic lifestyle will always leave you with memories of that life and you can use them positively to remind you why you should not go back to that lifestyle. Keep your head up like I am and things will get better.
Hello, everyone. I have been up for a little bit now on this Sunday morning and having my second cup of coffee so far. My mental status is okay as of now but the day has just gotten started so who knows what it will be by the end of the day. I am already feeling the stress right off this morning but my plan to get everything done today that is on my to do list. I wear my heart on my sleeve and always feel it necessary to help someone else but I, like some of you, am ready to put my foot down and say no more. I am tired of helping everyone else around me and neglecting to take care of things for myself. I am the doormat for everyone else and that is going to stop as well. So, let me get things started and we will see how my day is going to go. If you need someone to talk too just give me a call at my toll-free number and we can talk about whatever you need to talk about. Have a blessed day.