How Am I Today?

Apr. 23, 2017

How am I today? Let's see, it is raining here and my husband cannot work on the car to get it running, so I am stressed about that. We are still homeless and can't go work on the house, so I am stressed about that. My step-mother-in-law is always harping on money from us to help them pay their bills which we have none to give them, so that is frustrating. I don't know how to feel today. I just woke up about an hour ago and sitting here having coffee with my husband which is good, but I feel a little down today so far and I don't know how the rest of my day is going to be. I hope everyone else is going to have a great day and keep those smiles going.

Apr. 21, 2017

Good morning everyone. It is such a beautiful day here and my spirits are up even though my mind is still asleep. I have had two cups of coffee and I still want to lay back down. I am looking forward to today and the accomplishments I will obtain. I am still feeling a little down about being in the living situation we are in but I hope that it will get better. This will be short and sweet since I am not fully awake yet but I will write more later. I hope everyone has a great day and know that you are not alone. Be blessed.

Apr. 20, 2017

Today has been a so-so day as far as mental health is concerned. For the last few days, I have had this internal shakiness and cannot put my finger on what it could mean or what is causing it. I have felt down for a couple days and with this blah feeling that I eventually took a break from writing for two days and just sat around watching television. My body swelling, aches, and pains have been a factor too. I feel beat up and depressed all at once. Does anyone else have that problem? I am going to dive back into my world of writing and see if I can drown it out and keep moving. I hope everyone is having an awesome day and will write more tomorrow.

Apr. 18, 2017

Today is moving slowly and I am cautious for some unknown reason. I woke up this morning but couldn't wake up so I ended up going back to sleep for a few more hours. I am mentally excited about becoming a published author and have begun writing my first freebie book. I finished the first chapter last night and it looks good to me. I think that it will be a book everyone will want to read. That is just me being positive. I do have my down days and sometimes they can be difficult to fight, but I am getting tired of being a victim of my past. It is time that I let it go but that is always easier said than done. For now, the only thing I can do is keep pressing forward. I encourage everyone else who is struggling to just keep pushing through whatever issues you are dealing with and it will make you stronger for it.

Apr. 16, 2017

Today I feel okay. I am still homeless but I am okay. I have to keep telling myself that or my mental health would take over. I have to keep control even though there are times when I can't take it anymore and want to scream or hit something. I have lots of stress these days with living in a tent for about a year and feeling hopeless at times. My husband and I both have mental health issues and sometimes it is a battle of the mood swings. There are times when he is feeling bad about our situation and I have to keep reminding him it isn't forever and everything will be fine. That is whenever I am not breaking down myself. Everything will get better but I am living day to day. That is all anyone can do. So, keep your head up and keep moving forward.